Remember my roommate’s Black Lab
puppy? The dog who ate my favorite eye pillow? This semester living with Shiner
and all the messes and all the puppy kisses she comes with has certainly been a
mixed bag of blessings and curses. I’ve begun to think of Shiner as my own
personal Karma dispenser, a powerful and terrible entity charged with dealing
out my cosmic fortune one chewed belonging at a time. She’s certainly claimed
many of my things, the eye pillow being only one of many.
When she
vanquished my eye pillow, Shiner led me away from detachment. She helped me
along my yoga path in her own canine way. I was certainly thankful for her aid,
and I soon adopted a mindset of acceptance whenever I noticed she had torn
through another of my socks. Recently however, Shiner waged her quiet puppy war
on an object so important, so valuable, that even my considerable skills of
carelessness couldn’t assuage its loss: my new pair of glasses.
My glasses
are integral to my survival. Without them, not only am I blind, but I also feel
that I lack the confidence and “me-ness” my spectacles seem to provide. Due to
my optical difficulties and penchant for bold eyewear, I had chosen a pair of
thick black-rimmed Ray Bans and wore them with pride. That is until Shiner
decided to snack on them.
I still feel
sick when holding the mauled plastic carcass of my most valuable accessory. My
parents just recently bought them as a replacement for a pair I had lost, and
this will be no cheap fix. I will certainly be without clear vision (and
impeccable style) for a while before they can be fixed or replaced, and even
then, who knows how long they’ll last before Shiner gets them again?! I have
been crippled by the loss of my glasses. I’d like to imagine that even
Patanjali couldn’t expect me to practice detachment at a time like this, but I
know I’d be in error. My glasses are not a part of my true Self. My eternal
soul is not blemished by my lack of vision or by my negative thoughts and
emotions associated with their loss.
My glasses
have been taken from me just as easily as they were given to me. Shiner has fulfilled
her dharma of destruction, my psyche has been shaken, yet my Self remains
perfect and undying and, of course, free from chew marks.
You are a good writer, Evan. You have a gift for capturing the detail of life and our human interaction with it. I love the dog stories though am sorry to hear about your glasses.
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